he starts his prayer
before devouring his eight plates of sushi
as i match him– with my measly four
he starts his prayer
with thanking God
for getting “to do life with” me.
& i smile
with my eyes closed
& squeeze his hand a little tighter
because that’s the prayer i say
before i fall asleep.
before the asks,
for keeping him healthy
& happy
& safe.
they say God hears consistency
if that is true
then your name
must be the most prominent thing
God has heard from me
in years.
the greatest contradiction about social media,
is everything is eternal
yet fleeting.
once its out there;
it can be screenshot
shared
reposted
or just glimpsed at
by anyone.
by everyone.
but it documents
our transitions
our aging
weight gain
single
in a relationship
its complicated
single
and so on & so forth
the interweb remembers
the stranger who stumbled upon my facebook remembers
the ex stalking my instagram remembers
so maybe i just always wanted less of me… out there.
to be found, to be seen, to be remembered.
those who matter, know.
i dont need social media as my walking bulletin board, i told myself.
but something about you,
makes me want to open all the windows
& shout from every single platform
how crazy about you i am.
in that annoying,
in your face,
probably bold,
all caps,
don’t-fucking-care-who-unfollows-me-after-this kinda way.
you make me feel
incredibly lucky to be with you
& its the first time
i want to share this moment with the world.
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